Confessions of a fallen angel

First post in forEVA

Tue, 13 Jan 2009 19:56:07 GMT

Hello all...is anyone still out there in my LJ community?

I was alerted to the fact that I still, in fact, HAVE an LJ...so here it is folks. The first post in 90 weeks.

I just may have to start writing in this again.

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 15:12:44 GMT

I'm done my third year!
and I leave for Disneyland in 9 days!
yay!

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 20:24:49 GMT

i leave for new zealand in two days O_O

I AM SO EXCITED!

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 22:06:13 GMT

in brief comment to this post on Gareth's journal:

"- I hate how Flames fans like to tell me that the Canucks didn't make the playoffs last year but fail to forget they were out first round to a team from fucking Disneyland and failed to make the playoffs for 7 years prior to their run that was based solely on a "bygone era" of hockey"

well...as for being beat by a "fucking disneyland team"....
that disneyland team is kicking all sorts of ass in the western division this year...perhaps because they dropped the "mighty" from their name...but either way...at least we didnt lose to a team that is bloody miserable like, say, the Bruins...

that is all

p.s....don't be too hard on flames fans...we dont have a decent football team (this year at least), or a decent junior team (although the hitmen COULD be doing worse...), so we need to take pride in what we have....BC has the Lions, they have the giants, so ...there...haha

GO FLAMES GO.

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 08:40:26 GMT

for the record, david borenaz was the sexiest man alive when he played Angel on buffy

I found the first three seasons for less than twenty bucks apeice....

and the grinning and shivers creeping up my spine and making me dsfjalfih;ilth;jhfg;jdahg;ajreg....havent stopped since

droolllllllllllllllllllllll

p.s.--> thanks for the icon kendy ;)

merry xmas

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 21:05:33 GMT

hey everyone, have a merry xmas!

<3 mar

Xmas wish list =)

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 06:32:50 GMT

Okee people have been asking what I want for xmas, and though I have insisted to buy nothing, I figured I might as well post what I want instead of people pixing me things I dont want! ;)

so...
- scarves, mittens, and toques...all make me happy unless they're ugly (my friends should be able to judge such things)
- pretty much anything flames =)...but I do have a jersey so I dont need another one! (yah like anyone would buy me one :P)
- gift certificates to PLACES I LIKE OR NEED! (ie safeway & chapters)...and they're NOT impersonal...in fact, if its to the right place or some place with significance to me it means just as much =)!!!!

you know what? that's pretty much it. i'm pretty easy to please.

<3 mar

p.s.--> to people visiting this just to see the list...welcome to LJ! lol

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 07:33:17 GMT

the adventure i just had:

i was in the shower and literrally dumped shampoo in my eye, so i leaned back right before screaming bloody blue murder then slipped and cracked my back on the tap and my head on the tiles

so im screaming bloody blue murder and like cringing in the tub... i manage to crawl out, pull on a towel, still sobbing and my head is bleeding...then my doorbell rings

anyways, i crawl onto the balcony, cuz no way im going to the door at this time of night...

and someone there is like I AM YOUR NEIGHBOUR ARE YOU OKAY IM CALLING THE POLICE

and in my confusion im like...no im okay...thanks though...and slam the door

haha

so well at least some of them are nice...and now my eye is swollen and blurry, my back is bruised and my head is throbbing

grrrar

and my stampede plague still continues...

Tue, 23 May 2006 15:53:43 GMT

at school, waiting for the other people in my class to finish an online survey so that i can hear the "summary" of it and get on my merry way...

today is one of my 9am-9pm school days *glazed look*

so i turned in my two weeks yesterday...I got fed up with sooooo many things...so my last shift is June 3rd, 2006

Of course I'm going to job hunt, i know i need another one (although i have a 40 hr a week and approx. 8 hrs a month summer job(s))...but i need one now so i can carry it through until school starts again (i hope)...can anyone tell me how to get a job at the Calgary stampede? (NOT MAINTENANCE) lol...

I think im going to ask my parents for a loan for the month of june though...so i can focus on these three courses with riDONKulous work loads, and do well in them...and still be able to pay rent...i know ill be able to pay them back easily with my first paycheque from the office...

so some people in my life currently arent very happy...just want to remind them that i love them very much

turning 19 soon, yay! im also heading out to BC to spend a few days with Dani (new roommate come September)...and Ill be able to drink then! rather, i'll be able to see her favourite clubbing places :)

anyways...thats my life right now...i hope by the end of june i can take one big sigh of relief and be a helluva lot more relaxed and organized then i am now, lol

thats all folks...everyones done their survey

mar

Wed, 10 May 2006 06:37:38 GMT

Havent updated in forever and a day...

just trying to sort myself out...i've been in a 'transition' period for so long...trying to figure myself out and "get my shit together"...but i'm at a point where i think i may actually be looking towards the end of this transition...getting so much shit out of my house, getting myself back into *groan* physio, getting my appointments with specialists and everything all sorted...working out twice a week...work sort of cooperating with my schedule...lol...etc...

now i just need to work on NOT SPENDING MONEY...lol...well i should be okay by the end of june, sez i...i can go into some debt, i am a student living on my own...isnt that part of all this? lol...

anyways...andrea's over and is watching the last unicorn behind me so im gonna go snug! :)

love love

mar*

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 22:36:26 GMT

why do i feel like there's no escape?

not to be emo or anything...but it never ends! i have my life, scarily, planned until 2010, and past that - the only thing 'unsure' is when im getting married (and to who, of course =P...any takers? hah)...and in that life plan, there doesnt seem to be "relax" "breathe"...ergh....

these next three weeks better FLY by...

=P

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 08:01:20 GMT

I miss my cute little figure...

not like I'm some bloated monster right now, but i'm sure not as svelte as i once was...

well i'm, as my dorkybutwonderful friends would say, "gymming it up" whenever i can ^.~...maybe by my birthday ill have lost my chubb!

and hopefully...by then...things will have fallen into place in other ways in my life...cuz that would be nice...

...=) *face of cautious optimisim*

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 21:11:09 GMT

DOMINOE LIVED!!

=D!!!

Now for the week from hell...next week I have:

Monday: 1000 word essay proposal due & midterm worth 33% of grade
Tuesday: Need to have three chapters read and summarized for class...erghhhhh...
Wednesday: Working all night (hopefully working OUT in the morning!)
Thursday: HUGEEEEEEEEEEE Group project due!!!
Friday: Opening (working 730-1230 :P), class 1-150, hopefully working out, then maybe having some sort of life (?)

anywhoo

<3 ya'll gotta get back to work

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 09:47:02 GMT

so it makes me sad that i havent written an entry in this freaking long

by now i'm sure anyone that cares knows i'm very single, very alone (even minus a roommate) and very swamped with constant, never ending, workworkwork! (school, jobs)

anyways i just took my hamster to the emergency vet...i know im pathetic, and the vet IS costing me more than my baby BUT she gave me this uber fair deal...$50 for everything, all testing, all x-rays blah blah if he lives. $0 if he dies, no matter what tests they've done, and $10 if we need to put him down (again, INCLUDING all the tests we've done)....see we just put my kitty spicer down a few weeks ago and i cant bear to have another creature suffering around me...and i know mum's still sooooo upset about the cat...i need to at least try to make dominoe feel better...or not suffer at all =(

so hopefully i can post tomorrow saying i have a happy healthy hamster...poor dominoe...

i came home and took him out and, it was so weird, his belly was so bloated it felt like a tumor approx. the size of a tennis ball, which is HUGE on a hamster...since i took him out last night, i knew this was a new development so i kinna freaked....i called the emergency vet who said, well, its probably fixable...but not at home...and since we talked for 1/2 an hour and theres no way i could sleep with little dominoe like twitching and being CLEARLY in pain, i took him down...all the way to shawnessy...

i got pulled over on the way down...the convo went like this:

Officer: Where ya heading from?
Marisa: Dalhousie
Officer: You're a long way from there now
Marisa: I'm heading to the emergency vet *points at hamster and tear glistens in eye* (i'm way too sensitive...he cost me $20)
Officer: *peers in at hamster* Whats his name?
Marisa: Dominoe
Officer: Continue on, just watch your speed

hah at least i got a nice officer...i think i was going about 100 on a 60 section :|...but trust me i watched my speed CAREFULLY after that, especially on the way home (sorry officer, coming home from emergency vet and nervous? i dont think so)

anyways I'm also trying to make this project for english stop sounding stupid...and, at some point, maybe, get some well needed sleep...

sighhhhh

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 04:53:09 GMT

I havent checked my LJ in a hiwle and I find it very interesting that there are two convos, within a short time of each other, with people who dont even know each other, talking about glasses!

right...i'm a dork :P

Anywhoo...I'm losing touch with everyone because I'm so damned immersed in school/work...hopefully after midterms i'll regain my life!

I have decided though, that on October 7th I'm having a marisa-new-year and making new year's resolutions for myself cuz I really gotta get my shit together =S...I'm giving myself until November 7th to get all these 'resolutions' in check - wish me luck!

LIST:
1. Stop drinking pop. This includes highballs, except long island iced tea.
2. Drink more water!!!!!!!
3. PURGE HOUSE OF USELESS SHIT! This includes clothes that don't fit!
-bathroom
-bedroom
-hall cupboard
-bookshelves/computer space
4. Get more sleep (failing at this right now)
5. Arrange meeting with the dean re: What courses I need to take with a double degree/minor.
6. Get new computer in house, and home phone.
7. Keep better touch with people that matter!

So thats all - like I said I'm giving myself a month to try and finish/get into a routine of this shit...it should be do-able if I don't try to do it all in one day!

Anywhoo, thats it for now - it's bedtime!

<3

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 17:45:43 GMT

updating quickly, at school...

I MISS MY SOCIAL LIFE!!

Monday/Wednesdays: Work 730-130, class 2-330, work out 330-445, swim 5-6...then go home and do homework
Tuesday/Thursday: Class 930-5, sometimes work from 11-1230 on my break, then work 530-1030
Friday/Saturday/Sunday: Work either Starbucks or Dinos

BUT I do get days off, so call me people!

Oh...and yah, still frantically looking for a roommate as the arranged one, once again, cut out on me (how many times is that now?)

Its $400/month flat - I'll pay for electricity, gas and cable...and its a pretty big place (for a student)...so tell people and ask people and give them my number/email if you can cuz I really really really can't afford this on my own!!! =(

gotta run
~mar

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 08:20:48 GMT

Am I cool or uncool? [CLICK]

You are Super-Cool!

Woah! Step back - the future's so bright for you it's blinding me! You are the coolest of the cool. Everyone looks up to you as the benchmark for being coooool. The fonze was your grandfather. Any cooler and you'd freeze! WOO it's chilly in here.

Cool quizzes at Go-Quiz.com

sigh

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 07:55:39 GMT

"Yes they're sharing a drink they call lonliness
but its better than drinking alone"

I feel shitty right now...and its stupid but I do

Devin is gone, has been for weeks, but god this is so stupid - I honestly can't sleep in my house without him with me (or someone else)

and it seems so fucking empty in here...god damn i need a roommate - maybe then i'll get some sleep

on a less shallow and stupid note, my mum called to tell me tonight that a guy named Chris Mann died tonight. I spent time with his family often before he got sick - he got a disease called ALS (http://www.als.ca/) and has been slowly dying for years...

its not like i didnt see this coming, of course, but...well...I'm going to my 6th funeral on Monday now...

this is the saddest situation, i tell you...his family is almost happy because hes been struggling for YEARS...in a way i'm glad he cant feel any pain anymore...but this man was a good man, he raised 5 daughters (more on them in a second)...he worked with my daddy for years...he supported everyone...he was very, very funny - that i remember clearly...

his daughters...well there were five of them...sara was my age so we hung out whenever our parents got together...she quit her job and put her school on hiatus so she could come back to calgary (actually, airdrie - they moved to a place in airdrie with no stairs so chris could get around once he was getting on with the disease)...she knew her mum would need help (rosemary)...shes not in the best shape either...

anyways, his other daughters were good too; they helped whenever they could - except Audrey, his oldest...
Audrey decided she was going to go away to become a nun, because she thought if she could become closer to God he would help her and save her dad...however, one of the stipulations of being a nun is that you have to be completely seperate from your family for a period of 2-5 years (depending on where you go)...so Chris begged her not to go - he knew he was going to die, and he wanted to see her before he did - but now hes gone ... and she wont even know in time for his funeral because its very hard to get ahold of her...this saddens me a lot...

and andrea is gone...shes in saskatchewan...she became such an important part of my life for so long - its going to be so hard without her

and ashley leaves in a few hours to go to lethbridge - not as far - but still leaving...

and right now i have no one to call and i just feel really...alone. its not that my friends would hang up on me if i called them in the state i am right now - i just know i dont want to make them lose sleep too...and i know they'll be there for me in the morning

i just need to sleep and make it morning sooner...

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 23:23:32 GMT

GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING ASS NUGGET BITCHY STUPID SHITTY DUMB BULLCRAP BLARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

that is all.

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 14:38:11 GMT

It's 8:31 and I've been at school since 8:00 trying to write my GRST essay

so far I cant seem to focus myself enough to do a goddamned thing...

well, thats not directly true. I have got some sources and some good art examples but i still havent started my (&$!ING ESSAY...its supposed to be minimum 3000 words (at least she cut it down from 6000)...now, that's REALLY not that bad but when you need all these 'primary sources' (i.e. sitting down and reading all 19473564165491 pages of "The Odyssey"), it gets to be a bit much...no online sources for me! *damnit*

anyways this isnt really a good use of my time either but i really need to focus *head droops*...sooo tired...good news is that when I do finish this I'm freefreeFREE...until July 4th, of course, when my Summer Job (daycamp leader) starts...woot! ^.~

Well...I also have one more writing assignment...I need to write a resume and get another job :|.

I havent written one since CALM 20 (which I did in grade 10), and that one was fake anyways...I havent bloody needed one...I've been with the city being a daycamp leader for...well this is my 5th summer; and Roz (second cup boss) just hired me on the spot (go me) so yah...

anywhoo my brain is starting to wake up...if anyone has any supplementary knowledge on the goddess Aprhodite that is NOT the obvious stuff (goddess of sexual love, born of foam, Eros {cupid}s mummy, etc.etc.) that would be nice =P (the good news is this isnt due until the 29th....)

I should get back to work now...I need to go to the reading room to see if i can find these stupid-long winded-impossibly detailed-useless 'primary sources' now...

love love <3<3

~mar

quickness

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 09:36:09 GMT

Hey ya'll just a heads up...I put in my 2 weeks @ Second Cup today...

so yah, dont come visit me no more =P

and herm

well thats not IT i guess...almost done my class, and I move in to **MYPLACE** June 25th!

ack its late, i should go

ta

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 20:01:19 GMT

Well, I'm 18 now...

and I was welcomed into the world of "adulthood" by the most blatant display of immaturity that I've seen in a long time...

is this what it's like? Let's estimate that there were 200 people in the top floor of ceili's last night...
I think that ONE of the kids at my daycamp have the maturity of {most} of those 200 people combined into one. sick.

did i have fun? HELL YAH... {and i didnt even get hungover!}

but some things...well...they were...ummm never mind

I really have to give a shout out to all you wonderful people who bought me presents...and ones who bought me drinks :)

and the ones who CAME TO MY BIRTHDAY. Thank you for caring and coming.

In other news, one of my friends for like 5 years came out of the closet this morning...very interesting...I mean, I think part of me really knew...but well...It was still a bit of a shock...

anyways, thats all

bye

Wed, 18 May 2005 20:39:30 GMT

SIX-FREAKING-TEEN DAYS....

HOLY SHIT!!!

Tue, 10 May 2005 20:04:27 GMT

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real...I like the way that feels...Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself...

Happy {Belated} 6 month Baybee...

Geezus, where has the time gone???? away I guess {I'm so deep}

Yanywhoo...Got back from California this weekend >.< Wish I was still there! With all of you guys!! PAR TAY...

okay this is a useless entry, I'm just waiting until Dad gets home from shopping with my amber so I can take her out!

love ya'll

~ mar

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 18:43:01 GMT

**Countdowns** (and random short update)

THREE days until BSD (omfg...)
THIRTEEN days until my last exam (WOOT!)
TWENTY days until I leave to take Devin to California (damn right I'm the best gf ever - oh yah! {Im paying})

...and...

FIFTY TWO days until my 18th birthday...oh, I have party details - yes, every single one of you that bothers to read this is invited...I'll be posting details (except THOSE will be posted in a 'friends' journal - dont want like a random LJ wanderer showing up :|...wait that might be kind of fun...hehehe)

...I cant wait!

^.^

p.s.--> Kendy's hot ;)